okay

thats it
mr chiang deserves to die.
seriously.
this asshole is making me very angry. all the fucking time. hes making me hate science. a billion times more. so does he REALLY deserve to be a teacher? you call this a man of knowledge? of course not. that proposturous. he deserves a sundae with hot fudge inna prison cell that lyes in the depths of hell. (ha, the icecream would melt so fast. it would be goop at the second bite. suckaaa )

++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++

on another note.
im very fustrated with my self atm. i cant seem to get over something that has been in the past for more than a month now. its driving me crazy. feelings that shouldnt be here. that should have been flushed down the toilet like eons ago. the fact that i still think what we had, and what we did. the most stupidest part of my ongoing rant is -- its never going to be the same. its never going to go back the way it was. so whats the point? obviously the other person is completely over it. since day one. it was probably a huge relief. im a leech. what can i say. it sickens me though. its painful, yet its a truth that cannot be deneyed. im so fucking fustrated -- because of this. i thought i would get over it. and move on after winter break. i wouldnt see him, he wouldnt see me. but once i realized school is coming back... im totally fucked, all over again. seeing him. him seeing me. za-zing. back to fucking square one.

why wont these on going feelings just go away. and dont come back. ever again.

the thing that bruises. is the fact that.. seems like he already found something else. some other girl. of course this shouldnt bug me right? it shouldnt at all. nope.
feelings? of jealously? nahh.

*huff* can you smell the bullshit? yeah, me too. x_x;

ah fuckers.
i dont need this